Conner Shay Doran- Welcome to the world!

Conner Shay DoranBorn July 26th 2012
9lbs 6oz (Yes, You read that right!)
21 inches long

Alot has happen that's kept me from blogging since the little man was born, but before I loose site of blogging completley I wanted to finish out my pregnancy blog incase there is anything I can help out a new mama with or somethign I'd like to remember next time around :) Here is a blog template I found and loved the questions so I'll fill it out....but with my expierence :)

Childbirth:
Conner was delivered emergency C-section. I was induced and my water broke within three hours. Contractions were really painful with him and luckily the epidural cured everything up untiil the very end. I pushed for a few hours before they turned off the epidural and made me do a bunch of excercises to get him out. Nothinggggg was getting this little boy to drop any further and by turning off my epidural (in hopes it would help Conner move on out...) I was in a lot of pain and feeling every bit of my contractions so I was too distraught to push anymore. When the nurse came back and saw me ... she basically called the doctor right away and we prepared for the C-Section.

If I could give any advice to a mama to be it would be: Just enjoy every bit of it and mentally prepare yourself for everything. My whole pregnancy I ignored the thoguht of labor and C-Section because it scared the crap out of me, but I was hit with ALOT after having Conner and I wish I would have prepared a little more. Also, After the C-Section it can be kind of depressing because everyone is overwhelmed with joy for the new bundle and forget you are recovering from surgery. I wish instead of being sad in the recorvy room waiting to be released (only for about two hours), I would have just asked someone to stay with me instead of having visitors in and our for about five minutes.

The NICU:
Conner was in the NICU for a month because of pyloric stenosis. I can't front like the NICU wasn't a long, exhausting and depressing time...every bit of it sucked, and I like to not think of it but for any mama out there..just know it WILL come to an end and one day you will have your little munchkin home.

If I could give any advice to a mama to be it would be: I heard form alot of people "he's in the best place for him..." but towards the middle of this expierence I was having a really hard time with the nurses and didn't trust in what they were doing. After Conner's surgery, they were basically taking it day by day instead of actually working on him like a top-priority case. Every child needs to be treated like that and they tend to forget this untill they had me and Jeff in their face. They actually would go days without even filling in the parents on what was going on. The nurses were good, but they switch every three days so I met alottttttt alot alot of nurses. Many were good, just as many were bad. You can request a nurse! So if you like one, take the time to request her/him back...don't feel like your being needy. I did, and wish from day one I would've been aggresive. Watch them like hawks. They aren't always what they seem.

The first few weeks home:

Conner's first few weeks home were a little delayed obviouslly, but he was still a little guy when he came home and required alot of TLC. The hardest part was we got back into our sleeping schedule and were not prepared to be up every few hours.

If I could give any advice to a mama to be it would be: Take baby duty shifts night-by-night. I'm sure you will try out lots of techniques that work, but from what I hear and what works best for us is to do it night by night so atleast one person is getting some sleep every once in a while. MOMMA's:  With me and my expierence Jeffrey loves his sleep. He's not the easiest person to nudge to get out of bath so sometimes I would take mroe shifts than him, or fix up Conner's baths but I read in my parenting book and started to realize it takes away THEIR bonding time. Try to make sure the Dad is getting to indulge in JUST as many activities with the newborn as you are...baths, play-time, diaper changes, feedings, pictures etc.

I could honestly sit here and blog about my baby for a million days so it's hard to make this "Short" haha.

Here are five random facts "Vvery mom should know"

1. Babies sleep better with some sort of "white noise." I personally don't like the idea of having the TV on for noise because than I could hear people talking on the baby monitor when I'd leave the room haha, so I bought a Cold Air Ventilator to clean up the air in the bedroom, it helped alot when he was sick and helped him get to sleep!
2. Warming up the bottles at night time helps Conner sleep longer.
3. Keep the bib on your baby even in car rides. That seems to be the time Conner spits up and ruins his outfits.
4. Get something for stuffy noses. A lot of mom's get something called "Little Noses" from Walmart and its saline drops with a small nose suction.
5. I hate any diaper besides pampers. I know people say it doesn't matter, but Conner's exploded almost everytime we've steered away from there. They are totally worth the money to me and even more important than diapers are the diaper wipes. Walmart's wipes are the worst texture, they are so rough. Pay attention to the texture!

40 weeks

 

40 weeks
DUE DATE: July 17th
 

Congratulations to me and Conner for making it through 9 long months together, healthy and happy. Something I never realized until I was in this position was that you absolutely do have the option to quit in pregnancy. You can easily loose your confidence, your happiness, your self esteem and yourself completely if you don't stay focused and appreciate the beauty in it. Did I love my ever growing swollen feet, killer heartburn, inability to sleep and exhaustion 24/7? Nooooo.....but I loved the fact someone gave me the opportunity to create life with the person I love most in this world and to start a family of my own. I love the fact I was forced to stop and look at my life and figure out what truly mattered and I am so happy that I was given a chance to re-create myself, develop better qualities and apply that when my baby boy gets here.


Worst thing about pregnancy:

I didn't like the 'handicap' part of pregnancy. Having to roll out of bed or ask for help getting up became really old really fast. I didn't like when I was laying down on my back and my breathing was completing cut off by the way the baby would be positioned.

Best thing about pregnancy:
Obviously the kicking and hiccups are my favorite just like most moms! He got the hiccups for the first time that I felt on 4th of July and I'm pretty sure it was because he was so scared. He was kicking me so much that night I almost threw up twice... I remember patting my stomach like I was actually holding him to try and comfort him lol, I felt so helpless and I don't know if it helped..but I loved it! His kicks are my favorite too, especially when friends or family start playing with him. The other day I was sleeping and Jeff had woken up a little before me so he started patting my stomach and laughing to himself like he was actually playing with Conner.......it was so cute. I still haven't told him I caught him doing it hahaha.

Favorite memory:

I think I love most the memories that Jeffrey and I were able to make. The special things he did for me when I was so upset and felt so low meant the world to me. He has absolutely turned into the most perfect human being I know during this experience. I guess because I'm so stubborn,  I had to be in a complete place of vulnerability to let people cheer me up so much and understand how lucky I am and what better time than pregnancy right? :) 

Funniest memory: 

 I think the cravings turned out to be the times I laughed the most. Like ordering a crazy amount of food at Jack in the box...she asked if all the tacos were for me and baby and I just lied...haha. It happen alot! I always ordered way too much food that I never ate, but always lied when people would ask. Gooood times!

Most embarrassing memory: 

Towards the end of pregnancy, right before I took maternity leave, I started contracting alot and it was really embarrassing if I was in mid-sentence and talking to a group of people and had to hide all the pain and feelings going on in my body. I know a number of times people would stop talking and ask if I was ok and I'd just laugh....because I was embarassed hah.  I also have a lot of embarrassing moments with morning sickness and nausea.

#1 Craving: 

The most unexpected craving has been BBQ sauce and Pepsi/Coke products. BBQ sauce I never really went out of my way to eat, but at some points in pregnancy it was my soul food! I love it! and I couldn't stand Pepsi/Coke, but I've bought a couple packs this pregnancy. 

Biggest unexpected change: 

I feel like I am a completely different person now and I didn't expect that. For example, I can really handle a lot of emotions at once without having to confide in people, call my girls up or overreact. There is really nothing that gets me so worked up anymore and I love that. I really had to work hard on trying to improve my communication because I was so bad at it, but because of it my relationship is so perfect now. I feel like I have a lot more to learn and I'll always be growing, but I took more away from this experience than anything else so far in life. I'm finally proud of everything I am, everything I've accomplished and everything I have.

Overall Emotion: I had a lot of anxiety during pregnancy.

Thoughts right now: Right now I'm, of course, excited to meet this little man. I wonder how I'll do during Labor and what Conner is going to look like.  It's still really strange to me that this baby is mine and Jeffreys. It's such a BEAUTIFUL feeling to know that! I'm guilty of being judgmental before to people that had gotten pregnant. I always wondered how people can feel happy about bringing a baby into the world when they didn't have a healthy relationship, or enough money, or didn't seem to be mature enough but I'm sincerely sorry for thinking those things before.  Life is so unexpected, but at the end of the day that baby just needs love. I was so stressed moving three times at 7/8 months pregnant. I'm still a little worried taking maternity leave and hoping all the bills get paid, but never, ever would I say those things are reasons to not have a kid at this point in my life. People can judge us, it's going to happen but I'm so happy to have this baby and I know I'm blessed! Despite this being a surprise pregnancy, I'd CHOOSE this life for me. It's the best surprise I could have ever asked for!

37 weeks

How far along? 37 weeks! I really have gotten two different due-dates, and one puts me at 38 weeks, but I'm atleast FULLLL TERM now! 37 weeks today

Maternity clothes? I have some, but I don't really wear them. I wear yoga pants, pajama shorts and big t-shirts. Everything is so uncomfortable at this point anyways


Sleep? I went to the hospital the other day when I started active labor and they gave me a sleeping medicine which knocked me out. The next day I literally felt 100% better, but since than I've been getting a few hours a night. I'm not complaining though, I don't want to go from sleeping 10 hours a day to 2 hours when the baby comes so I'm okay with my body preparing me for it.


Miss anything? I am making a mental list of things I can't wait to do the first week I'm not pregnant. I'm going to drink a red-bull, sleep on my belly and have some wine!


Movement? He's getting so big, it makes me want to cry haha! I can't believe how big he can kick and his latest habit has been sticking his foot out for a while...which makes my tummy look completely deformed by the way....but than when I play with him he will put it back in! It's my fav. I also felt his hiccups for the first time yesterday! I think I'm officially saying hiccups were my favorite part of feeling him move. They were so cute :)


Food cravings? Lots of these this day. I got some big sticks from 711 late at night a couple times in a row this week. I really wanted a soft-taco from taco-bell yesterday and pepsi? I hate pepsi, but have been drinking it a little bit. It's weird...I'm not sure whats going on haha



Any new habits? Cleaning has been specialty lately..especially sweeping. I like sweeping like three times in one day haha and cleaning every inch of my room.

Things making you sick? Yessss... CONTRACTIONS. My tummy can tighten up so freaking bad sometimes that I can't breathe, eat and my stomach gets so nauseous if the contractions last a long time.

starting to show? um yes. this huge belly has taken over my body! Can't wait for my good old body back...except it'll definitely need some work done hah!

Best moment this week?

• I think taking maternity leave was a smart choice. I started contracting really bad last week, and I was having to call in. I wasn't sleeping, couldn't even walk the stores...I went to the hospital and they had said the baby still had to drop but I was dilating. I waited till my doctors appointment and we decided to take maternity leave...mainly because one day I can function and one day I can't. Since doing this I felt really pressured to get this baby out... I don't want to waste 2 weeks of maternity leave on being pregnant....but after talking with other pregnant ladies I realized I really needed this time to mentally prepare and get ready for labor anyways on top of feeling really awful so I think this was my best moment.
• I felt Conner hiccup for the first time........sooooooooooo cute!

36 weeks

How far along? 36 weeks baby!

Maternity clothes?I don't even like maternity clothes at this point. I like pajamas. Pajamas and sports bras. Thats about it haha


Sleep? Not happening. I'm restless! anxious! in so much pain because the baby just dropped and I have a bathroom trip every 15 minutes so...sleep sucks haha, but what can you expect at almost 9 months prego?


Miss anything? LIFE not pregnant! haha I've enjoyed being so close to my baby boy and observing his phases and watching him get those stronger kicks in...but I miss my energy, my workout routines, my body, being able to walk the stores and clean my room and enjoy sleep with some wine!


Movement? He's not a crazy baby! He does his share of kicks but compared to the stories I've heard, I think he's treated me pretty good. I've only had one time where he kicked me in the ribs and only one night I was really upset he wouldn't stop kicking so I could sleep. Other than that he gets his kicks in after I get off work until bed time. Oh and because he just dropped his kicks don't feel as intense. They are more towards the middle/bottom of my belly so I can't easily tell them all the time.


Food cravings? ahh I thought I'd make it this entire pregnancy without one of those dramatic pregnancy craving stories, but two nights ago I woke up and could NOT go back to sleep. Suddenly after like 2,000 Mcdonalds commercials coming on the TV...I really wanted McDonalds and took my sister with me to get some because I couldn't shake the craving. I even ended up ordering and craving a coke which I've never liked before. My favorite thing to consume the last months have been a fountain drink from the gas stations filled with power aide!   

Any new habits? no

Things making you sick? No. I'm always really exhausted and in pain after I've been out in the heat or been at work for too long...It takes me a while to re cooperate.


starting to show? of courseeeee.


Best moment this week? I haven't blogged in forever and can't wait to share my baby shower and how much fun I had!! I SERIOUSLY have the most amazing family and loved all the gifts Conner got. I'll blog more about this soon :)

- This week we set up Conner's furniture! His bassinet is all ready, stroller and clothes are all washed. He has so many outfits might I add..... And all of his shoes, toys, bibs, hats etc are all sorted out :) I had a lot of fun organizing all of his baby stuff and than shopping for the rest. They say you can never feel ready for the baby and maybe they are right...who is to say....but I feel pretty prepared and happy if he was to come today!

33 weeks

33 weeks!

How far along? i am 33 weeks.

Maternity clothes? Idon't like clothes right now, period. I own some yoga pants, a few maternity jeans which I will not be wearing in this heat, my grandma bought me some shorts, but I haven't been to the gym in forever and feel disgusting if I wear them in public, so I'm usually caught wearing grey or black yoga pants and tank tops. :)

Sleep? It's good! Besides the bathroom trips, and if Conner is laying right on my bladder, I go to the bathroom every ten minutes. The other day I went 16 times by the time 3 am rolled around so I had to stretch and move him around to sleep better. other than that, sleep is my bff.

Miss anything? YEEEEEEEEEES. Today I realized  I miss being able to clean my whole house with no limitations, I miss my showers where I can relax, sit down, shaveeee easily and I miss spending all day in the pool.

Movement? Conner is a night owl just like his dad. He usually sleeps till about 11 am, than naps on and off all day but by the time night time rolls around he's up and kicking my buttttttttt!

Food cravings? gross. I don't really have an appetite right now, I just love & crave water and blue power aid. Food is all gross right now. 

Any new habits? um.... I've been cleaning for days straight now. I don't know whether to call it nesting or if I'm just cleaning because my baby shower is coming up and Conner's room needs to be ready, but I've been cleaning and aiming for perfection when I do so!

Things making you sick? BBQ food. On my birthday last week I was craving hot dogs and hamburgers off the BBQ, but after that day....I could easily throw up just at the thought of it. Ever since I haven't really enjoyed any food besides sandwiches.

Starting to show? Oh yessssss. I don't notice myself getting bigger at this point...it's all the same to me, but I know other people see it hahah. I swear the other day I almost lost it after 6 people stopped me in the middle of a crazy work day to talk about how huge I was or how I should've popped already...In reality I have over 6 weeks to go so I'm just huge, but toooo avoid awkward conversations I just say Yes. I am huge, and Yes, I should pop soon. haha

Best moment this week? Alot happen.

1. I went to the doctor today and got re-tested for preterm labor results. I went to the hospital last Sunday for preterm labor, and got released after they gave me some medicine to stop the contractions. The doctor today rechecked and will get me the results tomorrow whether I'll be delivering super soon or not, but I'm not dilated so I'm hoping everything is good. Conner has some growing left to do and I certainly have some cleaning left to do haha. the doctor said I need to take it easy and lay down as much as possible, but that's SO impossible to do right now between a busy work week and so many home tasks to complete.
 2.  Tonight I got Conner's room cleared out since we just moved into my mom's.
3. My dad is going to paint Conner's dresser and that's exciting...it'll be something special from grandpa :)
4. Im SUPER excited for my baby shower this weekend!! I can't believe how fast it came & how relieved I'll be too finally start buying baby stuff since I will know exactly what is left to get.
5. Lastly, My family comes in town this week and that I am so eeexciteedddddd for. I haven't seen them forever so it'll be so nice to relax.

30 weeks

30 weeks!

When I first found out I was pregnant, I swore I'd never get to taht point where your "anxious" for the baby. I remember myself saying this exact quote to friends & family..."9 months is not nearly enough time to get things ready so I need to start now..." What was I thinking haha, dare I say it, but I am BEYOND ready to meet baby Conner and he still has some cooking to do in there so until than...I'll attempt to wait patiently and enjoy it. We will see how this goes. lol

In the meantime, I wanted to steer away from the normal questions I always fill out. I found this a few days ago and I'm going to fill it out instead. :) 

How did you find out you were pregnant?  By taking a home pregnancy test at my mama's. 
How many?  I think 3boxes, which is 5 tests. I took a whole box by myself, than had my mom run to get more, and than Jeff wanted to continue taking them that night incase I wasn't "doing them right." HA! 6 tests later...SUPRISE we are pregoooo! :)
What were your 1st symptoms?  I'd had some weird cramps that didn't necessarily hurt, but were way different than my normal cramps. I also hadn’t had a period in a while and people kept saying my boobs looked huge.
Who did you tell first?  Mama! Than Jeffrey, than my sister. Than we waited until the shock period was over haha.
Who was with you when you found out?  I was with my mom, I mean at her house, but I had taken the test seriously not thinking it’d be positive so I just went alone, took it and than started texting.  I was a complete mess after seeing the positive sign and I realize not because I was pregnant, but because it was such a big surprise. I’m not a fan of surprises. I like stuff planned and organized down to the nitty gritty.
My 1st reaction:  Not good.  Crying, shaking, and freaking out. For about four minutes
Was your baby planned?  Nope.  Biggest surprise of my (our) life.

How far were you when you found out?  At first I had no idea until I went to the clinic. I remember it was a weekend so I had to wait all weekend to go to the clinic, it was awful. The clinic estimated 6 weeks. Than I went to my doctor’s appointment and he said 9 weeks. .
How did your parents react?  My mom bought my test because she was the one grocery shopping at the time and I threw it in her basket haha. Because I’ve bought them before and nothing turned up and because my doctor had told me the chances of me getting pregnant right now with the problems I had would be hard, she said it was “a waste of money.” Hahahahh. Than she kept saying “your not pregnant. Your not pregnant.” So when I took my test and started screaming down the hall, she stood there really shocked but she's been so supportive and excited. My dad..who I felt would completely explode at me...was SO excited! He was just mad I told him last lol

My baby
Due Date:  July 22nd, 2012
Do you know the sex?  A fabulous little boy
Any names? Conner!
Any Ultrasounds?  I've had three throughout my entire pregnancy. I wish I had more, but what can ya dooo....
Have you heard the heart beat?  Of course. Every month. You can actually hear it if you lay on my tummy. It's so fast and strong.
Who do you think it will look like?  I kind of realized I always picture him in my mind like me just because I saw his nose and I know he got that from me. When it comes down to it though, I hope he has a little bit more of his daddy though so he will be so handsome
Will the baby have siblings?  of coursee.. I'm stoked to settle down for babies now. I don't want anymore for a few years, but I mean I plan on having a big old family, in seattle :)
Have you felt the baby move?  AHHHHH yes he is kicking. my. butt. Literally. I went to the movies with Jeffrey and at this point, sitting in a theatre chair is probably the most uncomfortable thing in the world. I was so restless. and I got so nauseous I had to leave. I think Conner could hear the movie and was reacting to it because he was kicking,rolling,punching me so hard I got SICK. Ever since than though (which was three days ago,) I've realized he's at a whole new powerful stage of kicking. Everyone can see him kick through my tummy. its pretty sweet :)

Miscellaneous
Did you have morning sickness?  Ugh, yes.  Awful
Did you have any cravings?  I’ve basically lived off of the same foods, just in stages. Milk (cold cold cold milk), nacho cheeeese on everything and drum sticks are the current faves. So healthy right? haha ugh
Did you have any mood swings?  Ha!  All of the time.  Jeffrey is a God for dealing with me. it's more just either ecstatic and super happy, or really irritable.
Are you a high risk pregnancy?  Nope.
Any complications?  Nope. thankfully
Formula or Breastfeeding? Breastfeeding
Have you bought anything for the baby yet? Oh he has his own dresser already.  Just clothes and a bassinet so far. I don't want to buy anything until my baby shower.
When did you start to show?  Hm I think I felt like I was showing when I was about 11/12 weeks, but I didn't really look pregnant to complete strangers untill about 17+ weeks
How long could you wear your regular clothes? I still squeeze into regular shirts and pajamas, but I think just within the last month I gave up jeans.
Will you keep the baby’s clothes?Yes! for his brothers :) 
Home or Hospital?  Hospital. 
Natural or Medicated birth?  I want the epidural.  For sure.
Who will be in the delivery room with you?  This has changed a bit lately. At first I was going to have it open to close friends and family, anyone who wanted to be because I think child birth is so life-changing, but I've realized how special this is for Jeff and he wants something a lot more private... he deserves that so were talking about this right now.
Do you think you will need a C-section?  I don't think so because I fill the baby kicking in my ribs which probably means he's where he should be. I'm really rooting to not have a C-section because I don't want to be healing for soooo long.

Will you cry when you hold the baby for the 1st time?  I don't really cry when special things happen, I'm just in a serious state of shock and complete silence. I haven't really imagined this part yet....so we will see.
What’s the 1st thing you might say to the baby?  I love youuu!
Will you let anyone video tape the birth?  ehhh no.
Are you excited?  While this seems like such a easy question, the bare truth that most women won't tell you is all the emotions they feel, exciting being one of them. I've been really nervous (to have everything ready in time), overwhelmed (when I was working too much and going to school because my body just isn't the same and it's exhausting,) blessed (because I feel like this life is the most meaningful. There really isn't any other purpose out there to me that provides more happiness than family.
Who will help you with the baby after the birth?  I moved in with my mom to save money so I could enjoy maternity leave a little better so probably her and my sister, of course Jeffrey.
What is your favorite thing about being pregnant?  I really
What is the worst thing about being pregnant? maybe the swollen ankles sucks the worst or the shortness of breath, nauseous, the headaches, BACKACHES, excessive hair growth....haha i'll stop there. I've realized some women love pregnancy and some women do not. I'm thankful to have such a healthy baby, but pregnancy has worn out it's welcome hahah.
What’s one thing you miss doing since being pregnant?  I miss tanning, and sleeping on my tummy! I also miss walking places like the beach or the mall without excessively worrying I'll have to pee and not make it to a restroom. 
Any days you wish you were not pregnant?  Of course not. I don't mean that sarcastically either lol. I love my baby boy so much. YES the process could be a little nicer on women but I am glad to experience it.
Are you ready for a baby?  I think so!  Ready as we’ll ever be
Do you have insurance?  Health insurance, yes.  Maternity insurance, negative.
How many kids do you want?  the more and more I think about this... I think four is a perfect number because it's pretty big, but nothing too big. That could change, but I'd like four.
Do you talk to the baby? I haven't really talked to him...I know sometimes if I'm in a really sappy mood I say things like "love you little baby." but I mostly rub him and play with him.
Do you still feel attractive? I don't feel ATTRACTIVE like I did before I was pregnant, I mean I'm never looking in the mirror super confident and excited with what I'm wearing, but I don't really feel self-conscious. I mean maybe I should be? but I don't think anyone really looks at anything besides my belly anyways so It's helped.
Have you had your baby shower yet?  It's next month. Can't wait! but actually yes I can. I still have to get Conner's room ready haha.
Do you like kids?  I don't like 'all kids,' I mean I've never been the type of person that went out of my way to play with little kids and stuff, but I'm sure I'll LOVE mine :))))))

How far along are you now?  30 weeks and some days!

 

29 weeks

(*IM CURRENTLY IN THE PROCESS OF MOVING SO I DON'T HAVE MY CHALKBOARD READY. Hopefully it'll be unpacked soon)

How far along? 29 weeks today!

Total weight gain? 25 lbs. as awful as this sounds.. At this point i don't care haha but I do hope I can get it all off as fast as I want it.. I watch and eat as healthy as possible because otherwise, I'm nauseous or throwing up. It's really insane how much you have to eat pregnant. I can't tell you how many times I threw up this month from being hungry, at least 6, it's so hard to change entire eating habits and eat 6x a day.

Maternity clothes? I have a couple pants, but nothing else. I just buy "bigger" sizes. Maternity pants for work have been hard to find so I've boughten like three pairs in the last month of yoga pants. I just wear them under my belly

Sleep? Ooooh It's ok. It's a hit or miss. I haven't had any stories like "I woke up because the baby was kicking so much" haha I sleep right through that so I'm not complaining. I guess the one thing I'll remember about pregnancy is waking up 4-5x for a bathroom break, and getting out of bed is a mission itself because my bed is soooo squishy, i sink in. It's a joke! Hahaa

Miss anything? Um not that I can think of, I think just being comfortable!! Driving is so uncomfortable now, sleeping has its days, showers are a bit weird with my new big belly... So I'm going to appreciate the day I have all of those back with no restriction.

Movement? Conner is a good baby I've realized! I haven't had any horror stories of him stuck in my ribs or kicking too hard. He's a kicker, and mostly at night he will start getting wild in there, but it's cute because Jeff is usually just getting off work so we get to play with him (or try) and talk to him.

Food cravings? I wanted to log the crazy foods that at one point or another I craved during pregnancy (NO NOT AT ONE TIME.. DON'T JUDGE HAHA): famous Dave's, milk, Arby's roast beef sandwiches with nacho cheese, pretzel from target with nacho cheese, ginger ale and Fiji water so far!

Any new habits? It depends on if I'm having "pregnant days" haha. I call a day a Pregnant day if I'm having bad symptoms and pregnancy is too blame (or so I think hahaha) so if I'm a emotional wreck, or throwing up, or tired beyond repair, I have no new habits. Something I've noticed when Is how mellowed out I am. Especially when cleaning comes around or in a argument or If I'm talking to angry customers... I'm really just relaxed and choose my battles now as far as what gets my emotions stirred.

Things making you sick? hmm. No. I only throw up if I'm too hungry or really stressed

Starting to show? Yes!

Best moment this week? this week was chaos between moving, starting summer season at the pools and adjusting to everything. I'd say the best moment was when Jeff felt Conner to his new big kicks. He was so shocked he could kick that strong... It twas adorable :)

26 weeks

"26 weeks, End of our 2nd trimester; one more to go!"

1. Weekly Weights & Measurements: I'm still at about 20 lbs gained since the day I found out I was pregnant. This is a lot more than I originally wanted to gain, but your body isn't really your body when your pregnant. I read an important quote in my favorite pregnancy book that went something like this "Your body is somebody's home right now, it's not really yours....and don't obsess over it by going to the gym every day and working too hard because god forbid if something were ever to happen, you wouldn't want it to be something that could have been prevented" SO...this has been my philosphy on the weight-gain. It doesn't mean I wish I was a little more attractive and obviously didn't blow up this huge, but I guess pregnancy modeling just wasn't in the cards for this girl haha. I will live........
   
2. Tests & their results: I have a glucose test on the 25th too test for diabetes. I never knew this until I was scheduling the appointment, but around this time women get screened for diabetes because during pregnancy, it's much more likely to develop & than go away after pregnancy. There is a big fancy name for it, I don't remember it, I just know long-name-short: diabetes. We will see! Other than that, Jeff and I are debating getting a 3D Ultrasound or not. I am not scheduled to get any more ultrasounds, and I'm so anxious to see what he looks like now that he's a big boy! On the other hand, I think waiting for that big moment of seeing him and not having any clue what he was going to look like is sooooo worth the wait. Right now, it's up in the air, but I think I'm up for waiting for that big surprise :)
3. Reactions to your developing body: I'm really not to bummed out at my new body. I'll admit, it's definitely not a time I'll remember for being extremely confident, but I'm pregnant! I don't really stand in front of the mirror crying at all the unappealing changes because I'm determined and focused on getting rid of them right after the baby is here. Right now I want to focus on stuff I can control, and my body isn't one of those so I haven't been reacting too crazy. What has been pretty wild for me to get use too is the physical changes that happen OVER NIGHT. Being able to get out of bed the same way I have the last 20 years is the first change that's weird getting used too. My back isn't strong enough and strains way too much now if I don't take my time, pace myself and pull myself up with all my muscles. My belly is also super big now, I swear it happen over night, and get's in the way of me crossing my feet and curling up like I have my whole life. It's just not comfy and feels like I'm cutting off my airways somewhere haha.
   
4. Questions to ask the doctor: I am asking my doctor a bunch of questions at my next doctor's visit. Some of them that I have written down are:
   
   • What do Braxton Hicks Contractions feel like
     
   • What type of birth controls are out there and the differences between them
   • When can I get back on birth control after delivery?
     
   • Any suggestions for birthing classes
     
   • My salt intake- how it effects me
5. Cravings and Mood Swings: I haven't been craving anything besides Rocky Road Ice-Cream. Love that stufff! and my moods are pretty consistent this week. I noticed myself being really deep & sentimental today lol. I was asking Jeff a million questions about his childhood because I feel like I should know him more for dating him for 6 years so if I found a scar on his back, I asked him to tell me the story and I can listen to him talk for hours & getting so excited to have these two boys in my life, Conner & Jeffrey Doran :)
6. Changes happening to the body and the mind: This week I called my nurse in a freak panic, and was really close to driving to the hospital. Long story short, I woke up and had severe SEVVERE swelling in my feet and ankles. they were so swollen, I couldn't even put my feet in my shoes, and I was really scared about preeclampsia. Preeclampsia is a disease that women sometimes develop in Pregnancy and it can't be prevented. It's really harmful to the baby and mother, and one of the biggest symptoms are swelling & vomiting (both of these I had all week which is why I was freaking out.) Anyways, the doctor had told me that based off the stuff I told her I was eating, I could be reacting really sensitively too salt and swelling when a meal had too much salt for my body's liking. I elevated my legs all night, and found that she was right! My feet were all better the next morning, but they do swell up based off what I eat. What sucks is not having the time to make everything I should be eating. My nurse told me that even eating mac-n-cheese out of the box is filled with salt and unhealthy, but I realistically will not find time to sit at home and make 30 minutes meals all day! I have started paying attention the sodium intake I digest, and keeping it under/around the max count she told me.....It' s hard work, but I'm glad it's nothing that could harm the baby! and my nurse........she's such a Biiiiiiiotch. She's so judgmental, and I feel like she talks down to me every time I call. I was really stubborn at first and didn't think she was right, but she was haha. I feel really good about naming our son Conner! It sounds perfect, and I know I love it because everytime a child runs by me and I even think I heard the mom call him Conner, I go up to her and tell her how cute his name is and ask what the middle name is lol! Jeff doesn't really like the spelling CONNOR, he likes CONNER a lot better, and I'm not opposed to it so if it's something he's really passionate about than CONNER it is. I really like the name: Conner Dean Doran or Conner Riley Doran (Jefff hates Riley so I'm not sure if I'll win this one any time soon.) Other than that, the names are being eliminated and we are getting close!!
   
   * I also am so proud of baby boy for his big kicks! He kicks so tough now it makes my tummy rock, and if a blanket is laying on time, it fluffs up a little if he's doing his summersaults. It's the best feeling!! His kicks keep me grounded. If I ever start getting too emotional, or too exhausted from pregnancy, his kicks keep me motivated. I love him so much!
   

25 weeks, Happy Easter!

PREGGGGO!

How far along: 25 weeks.

Total Weight Gain: do we have to talk about this? hahah it's like 19 lbs. I feel like I've put on a total of 55lbs though. my back is in bad condition, i ended up seeing a doctor for the sharp pains and I see a chiropractor about once a week. And as of last week, I can't get myself out of bed entirely on my own using my back lol, it's more like a roll-to-the-side, use your arms and legs, "let's hope we're lucky" process now getting out of bed haha.

Maternity Clothes: I dont think I could own anything otherwise at this point! The only thing not maternity is my pajamas. I bought some lounging shorts a couple months ago, and loved them, but there super snug now so it's time to invest in some more.... I have one pair of yoga pants that I wear like daily to work, i can't even tell you how much I hate putting those on every morning. I miss having a closet full of amazing options, but my maternity jeans are nothing to complain about :) love those babies.

Sleep: alright, this is the worst. I swear I'm pulling in around 3 hours of sleep a night? I can't wait till my next doctor visit to see what he recommended for this because I'm barely getting by. I know a lot of the reason I can't sleep is I'm just getting use to Connor's kicks and he especially kicks and somersaults at night, but last night I was feeling really anxious. My anxiety was through the roof every time I would wake up, I felt like crap, so I think, subconsciously, I'm getting really nervous now that baby kicks are there and my house is slowly feeling up with baby furniture! Even right now, I woke up like two hours ago, and I feel like it's nap time already. lol :/

Miss anything: Yes! I'm coming up to the end of my second trimester, and my baby is HUGE, therefore, I'm huge. Being huge has never been more uncomfortable, especially with a incredibly important tummy to protect, when I do try to bike ride & squat. Jeff has been really awesome about pushing me to keep working out and as much as I complain, cry and hate him for it...after that hour, I'm super thankful lol. I'm missing wine! and my hair has grown an incredible amount (as amazing as that sounds..yes I'm about to complain again.......it's awful to tame and straighten and control...haha)

Movement: Yes! He's a kicker, and I can feel him strong enough to track his movement. It's a scary feeling when he naps too long, and I don't feel him kick, so I'm learning the different ways that get him kicking lots. So far, I've figured out that the three, never to fail, "let's get connor kicking" strategies are 1)drink an entire bottle of water 2) lay on my back, flat and wait about 60 seconds 3)eat an entire meal, a little pass the point of comfort. and kicks feel great, for the most part.

Food Cravings: I have Arby's once a day! When I look back to this pregnancy, I'll remember how thankful I was for Arby's!


Things making you sick yet: I just get really nauseious if I can't get too food fast enough, or skip breakfest. This is actually a big change for me because the baby needs this food to grow, but more times than not, I'm not hungry & my body will get sick from not eating. I've learned to control this and I've learned when I need food, but this is about the only reason I ever get sick.

Starting to show yet: Oooooooooh yes. I'm rocking swollen ankles, huge boobs and the baby bump! 100% pregnant

Best moment this week:

• We registered at babies-r-us! It was so fun, and also so scary, because I had no idea what some of that stuff was in there. I learned eventually, and I'd say I'm pretty pro-status now haha, but at first I was just about binkies & bibs. I didn't know the first thing about humidifiers, swaddle blankets, breast pumps.
• We decided on doing Connor's room with the Lion King Crib set! It's seriously to die for.I love it so much!
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• Easter has been the only holiday I could really celebrate during my pregnancy so my sisters, dad and brother painted my belly with a cute little easter egg!
  
  
  

Hormones maybe?

Before I am a mom, and before I'm a girlfriend, I'm CARRIE. I'm so proud of the person I am, and I'm always working hard to make sure my loved ones are happy... but pregnancy sometimes plays with your emotions.


Coping with stress is one of the hardest things to do pregnant. Your still the same person you were before you got pregnant therefore, the same things aggravate you and upset you, but getting too stressed out hurts the baby so in order to deal with it, I've just ignored everything., and in the process forgotten who I am. I've had my share of mood swings this pregnancy, and currently I have days where I just feel like nothing about me specifically matters, it's everyone else.

Pregnancy is one of the most amazing things life has to offer, but just like everything else in life, there are parts of it that are extremely hard to deal with (any mom who says different is lying! I know it.) I've been left up at nights worried about my new role as a mom, how our financial situation will be, the physical changes to my body are exciting/overwhelming at the same time and lastly, is the adjustments in my relationship.

The best way to handle these things I've realized is talking about it (imagine that?) and making time for myself.

I decided to blog about not just the amazing things pregnancy has offered me, but I wanted to share the challenges too... so for all of you who still have yet to be pregnant, don't feel alone! and hopefully it helps a little to know its all completely normal.
I've read blogs by other mothers, and they really helped shed some light on these problems because the majority of people deal with them.

Things that have helped:
-Relaxing. People say relaxing and many things come to mind, but the best way for me to relax has been by taking baths with some candles haha, and the lights off. It makes me feel at peace! weird? maybe, but afterwards I feel like a million times better
-Keeping Friends, Family and my Baby Daddy<3 in the loop. I go to different people with my different problems and it helps keep me on ground.

Today I feel like a million dollars, and am so proud of my family-to-be. :) I just wanted to ramble a little bit about the struggles that come with this sometimes.

20 Weeks-HALF WAY THERE!

2o weeks, We are HALF WAY THERE Ladies & Gents!

Just rambling for this week:

• I was so excited to take this picture because half-way there seems so surreal.
  
• This week I thought alot about where I'd be if i wasn't pregnant. I know girls my age live for going out, dressing all dolled up, impressing the boys, partying and I can't say I wouldn't be doing that If I wasn't pregnant......but I feel like I have so much to live for now. A meaning, obviously but I'm so happy and content with my life. Getting pregnant at a young age can be difficult, and I can totally see where girls would struggle because you see everyone doing one thing, and you are forced to do another, but trust me...if you ever get to that point: be thankful! This life is one thousand times better.
  
• On the controversy, this week I started getting morning sickness? MORNING SICKNESS AT 6 MONTHS? come again please?!?! but yes. I started throwing up pretty bad after meals that were a bit spicy, and this morning I had my first official freak out which almost had me at the hospital. Jeff and I got smoothies because I thought drinking those would be more beneficial and ease the nauseousness, than I got to work and ate some faustos.... within minutes I was literally passing out and puking everywhere so I called the doctor ASAP and contemplated all day whether to go to the hospital. Luckily I had some nice co-workers help calm me down untill the doctor called me back which revealed I wasn't on that great of a diet & that was it. She said stop all dairy products and spicy food.......wahhhhhhh.......and cut down on sugar. Although this sucks because if you know me, spicy food, ice cream and milk are my FAV's, it's worth it. Let's see how I do! Hopefully no more scares.
  
• I'm really thinking about doing the babies room in safari theme! I love these particularly:
  
  I think I could work with this and make it TO DIE FOR cute :)
• Last but not least, work! ahhhh....exhausting. I've been putting way too much in lately, and I'm very thankful for my job, but I'm in desperate need for just some time AWAY. I put in for a week off starting next week, and I am already pumped about it and started planning loads of things I've been wanting to do forever now. I really need to learn how to manage my time and stop putting work above everything. It's important, but in the long run, school and family and house work and things like that need to get done just as much.
  

19 weeks

So this week I didn't get to do my chalkboard picture. Reason being is I'm spending time at my dads, so I decided just to do some quick snap shots of my bare belly :)

My baby

Due Date: July 20^th, 2012

Do you know the sex? A fabulous little boy

Any names? We love Conner and Caden! I’m sure the list will build, but when I’m talking about him, I refer to him as Conner….so………:D

Any Ultrasounds? We have one this week, So excited! I’ve had two, one when we first found out and one when we found out the sex. Each time he looks so different, but what else can I expect…it’s because he’s growing and looking more and more human each time! Last time he definitely looked a little like a Alien……hope that’s changed hahah!

Have you heard the heart beat? Of course we have! We hear it at every appointment and I’m never tired of it.

Who do you think it will look like? I haven’t really thought of this much yet which is surprising to me. Jeff said he had my nose in our last ultrasound and then I totally saw it, so I’m hoping a little bit of both.

Will the baby have siblings? He better have siblings, just not for a couple years! Life is so unexpected so you never know what is to come, but I want a couple years in between each other so I have quality time with each one and I also think that’s a good age gap between the few.

Have you felt the baby move? I THINK so! I’m pretty positive I’ve felt him a couple times, but they are so short and weak that I can’t really describe it. It almost feels like your stomach is about to growl, but it doesn’t. It just beats in these couple spots a few times and then it’s over. Weird!

Are you ready for a baby? Ohhhhhhhhhh boy, how do you answer this question? Is anyone ever ready? I’m definitely not rushing this pregnancy at all, I need the time to adjust and mature and just adapt to all these changes. When you think of 9 months, you think you have forever in front of you……….but than it comes…and months pass by….and before you know it your half way there! It really seems like just yesterday I was partying with friends and worrying about the stupid stuff like drama, gossip, shopping……now I have a new life in front of me that takes some getting used to. It has so many more things to offer and I wouldn’t change being pregnant for the world, but I just want to enjoy the time I have to get ready. For now, I say Nooo I am not ready for a baby…but I am getting there!

Do you talk to the baby? Eh, not really. I rub “him”, but I think once he starts kicking, I’ll feel a lot more connected and everything will feel a lot more real. Than I’ll talk to him until the sun goes down and rises in the morning.

Do you still feel attractive? I always thought that I would embrace pregnancy and have a glow to me that was apparent to everyone. Not really the case though. I do have days where I feel cute and I have days when I feel like I got run over by a train. It just depends on my mood. This week I got all dressed up and took pictures JUST to remind myself I’m a mother now yes, but I’m still me and It’s important to feel worthy and feel good about yourself. I hope I’ll be “glowing” one day soon

18 weeks!

About me & baby this week!!

How far along: exactly 18 weeks, which means 5 months! i really really really can't believe I was nearly three months before I found out I was pregnant. This has been going so fast, and i know it'll be over before I know it, but 5 months is just about half way. Still deathly afraid of LABOR!

Total Weight Gain: I've gained about 14 pounds. I talked to my doctor about working out because I really don't want to go over the healthy 20 lb pregnancy weight gain goal! and that is approaching fast, so I've started doing more activity like taking walks instead of driving to places like the gas station... I'm going to start the actual gym process this week too!

Maternity Clothes: They are my fav. I've been rocking yoga pants mostly this week, except we had a few special occasions this week and I thanked the lord for the lovely maternity jeans I have. Have i mentioned I like my maternity jeans better than real jeans? they are adorable haha

Sleep: lets not talk about this haha. So i just had to stop sleeping on my tummy, it's too uncomfortable and more importantly it's getting big so I dont want to squish the baby...but this leaves me really uncomfortable just because I'm not used to it. I hope it goes away..but since I literally just stopped like three nights ago, I'm exhausted.

Miss anything: I really wanted a red-bull today! soooooo bad

Movement: he's seriously making me anxious. My doctor said it should be happening any day, but I hate waiting. I just want him to start moving right now....I've been making myself crazy anticipating what it will feel like. I think it's going to either be really painful or like a roller-coaster stomache-feeling. People describe the whole 'butterfly sensation' but I can't picture butterflies fluttering away in my stomach so for now this is what I'm thinking. Hopefully he starts kicking .... tonight :)

Food Cravings: nothing really! I started getting a sore throat, and have had ice-cream like 3x this week because it felt really good hahha.

Any new habits: nooooo. Jeffrey and I have really been spending every day, every minute together and I love it! As soon as I come in, I set my things down and we just sit on the couch for hours talking and stuff with no TV/phone/annoying things. It's the best times! And he started talking to the baby alot. *personally I think he started talking to my belly so much because I told him the baby can hear me now...and he doesn't want to be secluded so he's trying his hardest haha.

Things making you sick: No. Im doing pretty good here, can't think of anything! I have been getting really irritated with my skin itching, so lotion is on the night-stand now.

Starting to show yet: yes. I really love my picture this week. it's a big ol belly..or at least to me haha! tonight I was like telling Jeff how crazy it is I'm pregnant. I was like "it's just weird now that I have this belly. like I'm Pregnant?! it never gets old." and he's like " I think you've said that every night this week" hahaha.

Gender prediction: we have our little baby boy! :)

Best moment this week: This week we had a doctors checkup. She told me to start looking out for some baby kicks, so I've been stopping mid-sentence in a conversation if I feel anything going on in my belly. For the most part, I think he isn't kicking yet. He had his foot out the other day, and I could feel that. It was cute & just poking out for a couple hours..but nothing since than. I've had a crazy case of acne during this pregnancy, so I just bought Centaphil which is an amazing acne wash- i recommend this to everyone!! Better than proactive definitely. My dad bought me a bassinet...to help us stress less about SIDS. Most people don't like bassinets because children grow out of them so fast, but if thats 5 months I can sleep better knowing my child is right next to me, than I'll pay whatever. No stretchmarks so far! I'm pretty confident I'll be getting some though because my mother had them, and my skin is itching like a mad-men, but I'm not going to stress over what I can't control. Other than that, I've been really happy! and wouldn't change a thing!! I feel SO blessed to be so comfortable in my own skin, to have a family that is so fun and loves me so much, to be so fortunate and do great things like baby shop & arts&crafts, and to cherish all the moments-both good&bad.

hope everyone is doing great :) !

17 weeks

How far along: 17 weeks :)

Total Weight Gain: it's at about 11 lbs.

Maternity Clothes: a whole new wardrobe! It feels so great. I have like 4 pairs of work pants/ yoga pants/ jeans/ and a bunch of cardigans +tank tops. I also bought a really pretty dress that looks great in pregnancy pictures. I only spent about $100 buying it all at this amazing little store on the beach in San Diego called "The Closet", they aren't maternity clothes, but they had endless cardigans & amazing clothes for $5. Needless to say I scored big time in that store and am so happy with the new clothes i have.

Sleep: I had to stop sleeping on my tummy because I'm too big. I sleep perfectly fine, i'm just trying to find a comfortable position I'll enjoy just as much as I did sleepin on my tummy.

Miss anything: I love being pregnant! :) it's been 5 months of this new lifestyle and I'm enjoying every bit right now.

Movement: nope nope nope, he's a tease and is making me wait super long! I started getting ligament cramps which hurt like HELL! they start around this time, and it feels like a consistent punching/kicking feeling for a couple seconds, than feels bruised afterwards...it's not pleasant.

Food Cravings: no cravings, Famous Daves is long gone & so is Milk haha.

Any new habits: shopping for my baby! of course

Things making you sick: I've been getting along pretty easy with this, nothing smells to terrible anymore, I think it's second trimester! It really is the best

Starting to show yet: yeppp! I love being big enough for people to feel the belly and how hard it is, mainly Jeffrey. He has this new habit of rubbing my tummy right when we see each other and after we hug, he'll do it when we are like watching a movie or eating dinner..........i love it so much.

Gender prediction: we have our little baby boy! :)

Best moment this week: I went on a vacation with my mom and sister. It was such an amazing get-a-way from work & school & stress. Lately work has been so overwhelming, and catching up on all my schoolwork was killing me so I needed it real bad. Now I'm feeling great. This week Heather and I also talked about moving in together. My lease ends in April (one month) and if I can live with anyone besides Jeff, it's her because I've lived with her my whole life haha. Right now we are just looking up places in our price range. :)

Names: We currently love CONNER the most. I'm pretty sure I refer to the baby as "baby conner" whenever possible. I also love Caiden, but it's not a favorite of Jeffrey's yet. Those are the two strong contestants right now !

My Pregnancy Must-Have's!

So I've noticed that every pregnant women has a variety of things they reccommend and swear by while they are pregnant. I have a couple things I'd reccomend getting for expecting mothers myself. These are the majority of things that I've adapted since being pregnant, and use religously.










*Lysol Disinfectant Spray- The last thing I want to be is sick so I invest a lot of money into sprays like Lysol. I spray it over my bedding, pillows, couch etc. every night to try and make the house as clean & healthy as possible. I think it’s a good habit to get in because babies get sick fast. Sometimes the smell is a little overwhelming, so I also have a couple cans of febreeze to make the house smell pretty. Love my sprays!


*Prego Book- I haven’t finished this book yet, but I’m about half-way through and really LOVE it. It gets me laughing out loud all the time, and is great with advice. I feel like it’s the perfect book because the other books are really “preachy”, and scare me some. This puts a realistic spin on everything for me!


*Olay Body Wash- People have their own body wash, and after trying every single brand on the shelves, I’ve finally found the one I love love love! Being pregnant has made my skin dry, and with all the changes going on, I don’t’ always feel so clean & pretty like I used to. These bodies wash smells like pure heaven, So girly! But the best part is how soft it makes my skin. It’s like a 5-in-one body wash.


*Body Pillow- This is the #1 universal item recommended for pregnant women and for a good reason. Nobody touches my body pillow at night time hahaha


*Maternity Jeans- Who would’ve thought these would ACTUALLY be great to wear being pregnant and all? Hahah. I just bought a couple pairs last week, and I really regret not buying them sooner. The second your belly starts growing, there really isn’t a jean size out there that will make you feel as comfortable as these. The jeans I have now are so cute, with diamonds all over the pocket & everything; they just have this amazing supportive belly band to make it as comfortable as possible. I hope everyone else isn’t as stubborn as me and gets these asap.


*Snacks- When you are pregnant, hunger can strike at any moment and when it does, you better be ready lol. The best way to fight this off has been to invest in little snacks and small meals. I personally love things like string cheese, raviolis, sandwiches etc. They are all easy to make, easier to eat and help the embarrassing tummy growls that happen 1234234x a day.


*Sweat Pants- there isn’t a better time to pull of being a bum and wearing sweat pants than when you are carrying a child, but I think you can still make them cute. I’ve found yoga pants, with no tight elastic or ties around the top are the best. If they are still tight fitting, than it gives your body some figure and you still end up comfortable so it’s a win-win. The loose sweatpants just make me look terrible!


*Baby Oil- I’ve always done this, but putting baby oil on right after the show before you dry off is the best way to keep my skin soft and hopefully is another way to prevent stretch marks! It’s just a great way to keep my skin soft all day!



I'm sure I'll be adding things to the list as I get further along, but as of 17 weeks pregnant- this is my life :)