Tuesday, July 17, 2012

40 weeks


40 weeks
DUE DATE: July 17th
 
Congratulations to me and Conner for making it through 9 long months together, healthy and happy. Something I never realized until I was in this position was that you absolutely do have the option to quit in pregnancy. You can easily loose your confidence, your happiness, your self esteem and yourself completely if you don't stay focused and appreciate the beauty in it. Did I love my ever growing swollen feet, killer heartburn, inability to sleep and exhaustion 24/7? Nooooo.....but I loved the fact someone gave me the opportunity to create life with the person I love most in this world and to start a family of my own. I love the fact I was forced to stop and look at my life and figure out what truly mattered and I am so happy that I was given a chance to re-create myself, develop better qualities and apply that when my baby boy gets here.


Worst thing about pregnancy:
I didn't like the 'handicap' part of pregnancy. Having to roll out of bed or ask for help getting up became really old really fast. I didn't like when I was laying down on my back and my breathing was completing cut off by the way the baby would be positioned.

Best thing about pregnancy:
Obviously the kicking and hiccups are my favorite just like most moms! He got the hiccups for the first time that I felt on 4th of July and I'm pretty sure it was because he was so scared. He was kicking me so much that night I almost threw up twice... I remember patting my stomach like I was actually holding him to try and comfort him lol, I felt so helpless and I don't know if it helped..but I loved it! His kicks are my favorite too, especially when friends or family start playing with him. The other day I was sleeping and Jeff had woken up a little before me so he started patting my stomach and laughing to himself like he was actually playing with Conner.......it was so cute. I still haven't told him I caught him doing it hahaha.

Favorite memory:
I think I love most the memories that Jeffrey and I were able to make. The special things he did for me when I was so upset and felt so low meant the world to me. He has absolutely turned into the most perfect human being I know during this experience. I guess because I'm so stubborn,  I had to be in a complete place of vulnerability to let people cheer me up so much and understand how lucky I am and what better time than pregnancy right? :) 

Funniest memory: 
 I think the cravings turned out to be the times I laughed the most. Like ordering a crazy amount of food at Jack in the box...she asked if all the tacos were for me and baby and I just lied...haha. It happen alot! I always ordered way too much food that I never ate, but always lied when people would ask. Gooood times!

Most embarrassing memory: 
Towards the end of pregnancy, right before I took maternity leave, I started contracting alot and it was really embarrassing if I was in mid-sentence and talking to a group of people and had to hide all the pain and feelings going on in my body. I know a number of times people would stop talking and ask if I was ok and I'd just laugh....because I was embarassed hah.  I also have a lot of embarrassing moments with morning sickness and nausea.

#1 Craving: 
The most unexpected craving has been BBQ sauce and Pepsi/Coke products. BBQ sauce I never really went out of my way to eat, but at some points in pregnancy it was my soul food! I love it! and I couldn't stand Pepsi/Coke, but I've bought a couple packs this pregnancy. 

Biggest unexpected change: 
I feel like I am a completely different person now and I didn't expect that. For example, I can really handle a lot of emotions at once without having to confide in people, call my girls up or overreact. There is really nothing that gets me so worked up anymore and I love that. I really had to work hard on trying to improve my communication because I was so bad at it, but because of it my relationship is so perfect now. I feel like I have a lot more to learn and I'll always be growing, but I took more away from this experience than anything else so far in life. I'm finally proud of everything I am, everything I've accomplished and everything I have.

Overall Emotion:
I had a lot of anxiety during pregnancy.

Thoughts right now: Right now I'm, of course, excited to meet this little man. I wonder how I'll do during Labor and what Conner is going to look like.  It's still really strange to me that this baby is mine and Jeffreys. It's such a BEAUTIFUL feeling to know that! I'm guilty of being judgmental before to people that had gotten pregnant. I always wondered how people can feel happy about bringing a baby into the world when they didn't have a healthy relationship, or enough money, or didn't seem to be mature enough but I'm sincerely sorry for thinking those things before.  Life is so unexpected, but at the end of the day that baby just needs love. I was so stressed moving three times at 7/8 months pregnant. I'm still a little worried taking maternity leave and hoping all the bills get paid, but never, ever would I say those things are reasons to not have a kid at this point in my life. People can judge us, it's going to happen but I'm so happy to have this baby and I know I'm blessed! Despite this being a surprise pregnancy, I'd CHOOSE this life for me. It's the best surprise I could have ever asked for!

Thursday, July 5, 2012

37 weeks





How far along? 37 weeks! I really have gotten two different due-dates, and one puts me at 38 weeks, but I'm atleast FULLLL TERM now! 37 weeks today

Maternity clothes? I have some, but I don't really wear them. I wear yoga pants, pajama shorts and big t-shirts. Everything is so uncomfortable at this point anyways


Sleep? I went to the hospital the other day when I started active labor and they gave me a sleeping medicine which knocked me out. The next day I literally felt 100% better, but since than I've been getting a few hours a night. I'm not complaining though, I don't want to go from sleeping 10 hours a day to 2 hours when the baby comes so I'm okay with my body preparing me for it.


Miss anything? I am making a mental list of things I can't wait to do the first week I'm not pregnant. I'm going to drink a red-bull, sleep on my belly and have some wine!


Movement? He's getting so big, it makes me want to cry haha! I can't believe how big he can kick and his latest habit has been sticking his foot out for a while...which makes my tummy look completely deformed by the way....but than when I play with him he will put it back in! It's my fav. I also felt his hiccups for the first time yesterday! I think I'm officially saying hiccups were my favorite part of feeling him move. They were so cute :)


Food cravings? Lots of these this day. I got some big sticks from 711 late at night a couple times in a row this week. I really wanted a soft-taco from taco-bell yesterday and pepsi? I hate pepsi, but have been drinking it a little bit. It's weird...I'm not sure whats going on haha



Any new habits? Cleaning has been specialty lately..especially sweeping. I like sweeping like three times in one day haha and cleaning every inch of my room.

Things making you sick? Yessss... CONTRACTIONS. My tummy can tighten up so freaking bad sometimes that I can't breathe, eat and my stomach gets so nauseous if the contractions last a long time.

starting to show? um yes. this huge belly has taken over my body! Can't wait for my good old body back...except it'll definitely need some work done hah!

Best moment this week?
  • I think taking maternity leave was a smart choice. I started contracting really bad last week, and I was having to call in. I wasn't sleeping, couldn't even walk the stores...I went to the hospital and they had said the baby still had to drop but I was dilating. I waited till my doctors appointment and we decided to take maternity leave...mainly because one day I can function and one day I can't. Since doing this I felt really pressured to get this baby out... I don't want to waste 2 weeks of maternity leave on being pregnant....but after talking with other pregnant ladies I realized I really needed this time to mentally prepare and get ready for labor anyways on top of feeling really awful so I think this was my best moment.
  • I felt Conner hiccup for the first time........sooooooooooo cute!





Tuesday, June 26, 2012

36 weeks


How far along? 36 weeks baby!

Maternity clothes?I don't even like maternity clothes at this point. I like pajamas. Pajamas and sports bras. Thats about it haha


Sleep? Not happening. I'm restless! anxious! in so much pain because the baby just dropped and I have a bathroom trip every 15 minutes so...sleep sucks haha, but what can you expect at almost 9 months prego?


Miss anything? LIFE not pregnant! haha I've enjoyed being so close to my baby boy and observing his phases and watching him get those stronger kicks in...but I miss my energy, my workout routines, my body, being able to walk the stores and clean my room and enjoy sleep with some wine!


Movement? He's not a crazy baby! He does his share of kicks but compared to the stories I've heard, I think he's treated me pretty good. I've only had one time where he kicked me in the ribs and only one night I was really upset he wouldn't stop kicking so I could sleep. Other than that he gets his kicks in after I get off work until bed time. Oh and because he just dropped his kicks don't feel as intense. They are more towards the middle/bottom of my belly so I can't easily tell them all the time.


Food cravings? ahh I thought I'd make it this entire pregnancy without one of those dramatic pregnancy craving stories, but two nights ago I woke up and could NOT go back to sleep. Suddenly after like 2,000 Mcdonalds commercials coming on the TV...I really wanted McDonalds and took my sister with me to get some because I couldn't shake the craving. I even ended up ordering and craving a coke which I've never liked before. My favorite thing to consume the last months have been a fountain drink from the gas stations filled with power aide!   

Any new habits? no

Things making you sick? No. I'm always really exhausted and in pain after I've been out in the heat or been at work for too long...It takes me a while to re cooperate.


starting to show? of courseeeee.


Best moment this week? I haven't blogged in forever and can't wait to share my baby shower and how much fun I had!! I SERIOUSLY have the most amazing family and loved all the gifts Conner got. I'll blog more about this soon :)

- This week we set up Conner's furniture! His bassinet is all ready, stroller and clothes are all washed. He has so many outfits might I add..... And all of his shoes, toys, bibs, hats etc are all sorted out :) I had a lot of fun organizing all of his baby stuff and than shopping for the rest. They say you can never feel ready for the baby and maybe they are right...who is to say....but I feel pretty prepared and happy if he was to come today!





Monday, June 4, 2012

33 weeks

33 weeks!

How far along? i am 33 weeks.

Maternity clothes? Idon't like clothes right now, period. I own some yoga pants, a few maternity jeans which I will not be wearing in this heat, my grandma bought me some shorts, but I haven't been to the gym in forever and feel disgusting if I wear them in public, so I'm usually caught wearing grey or black yoga pants and tank tops. :)

Sleep? It's good! Besides the bathroom trips, and if Conner is laying right on my bladder, I go to the bathroom every ten minutes. The other day I went 16 times by the time 3 am rolled around so I had to stretch and move him around to sleep better. other than that, sleep is my bff.

Miss anything? YEEEEEEEEEES. Today I realized  I miss being able to clean my whole house with no limitations, I miss my showers where I can relax, sit down, shaveeee easily and I miss spending all day in the pool.

Movement? Conner is a night owl just like his dad. He usually sleeps till about 11 am, than naps on and off all day but by the time night time rolls around he's up and kicking my buttttttttt!

Food cravings? gross. I don't really have an appetite right now, I just love & crave water and blue power aid. Food is all gross right now. 

Any new habits? um.... I've been cleaning for days straight now. I don't know whether to call it nesting or if I'm just cleaning because my baby shower is coming up and Conner's room needs to be ready, but I've been cleaning and aiming for perfection when I do so!

Things making you sick? BBQ food. On my birthday last week I was craving hot dogs and hamburgers off the BBQ, but after that day....I could easily throw up just at the thought of it. Ever since I haven't really enjoyed any food besides sandwiches.

Starting to show? Oh yessssss. I don't notice myself getting bigger at this point...it's all the same to me, but I know other people see it hahah. I swear the other day I almost lost it after 6 people stopped me in the middle of a crazy work day to talk about how huge I was or how I should've popped already...In reality I have over 6 weeks to go so I'm just huge, but toooo avoid awkward conversations I just say Yes. I am huge, and Yes, I should pop soon. haha

Best moment this week? Alot happen.

1. I went to the doctor today and got re-tested for preterm labor results. I went to the hospital last Sunday for preterm labor, and got released after they gave me some medicine to stop the contractions. The doctor today rechecked and will get me the results tomorrow whether I'll be delivering super soon or not, but I'm not dilated so I'm hoping everything is good. Conner has some growing left to do and I certainly have some cleaning left to do haha. the doctor said I need to take it easy and lay down as much as possible, but that's SO impossible to do right now between a busy work week and so many home tasks to complete.
 2.  Tonight I got Conner's room cleared out since we just moved into my mom's.
3. My dad is going to paint Conner's dresser and that's exciting...it'll be something special from grandpa :)
4. Im SUPER excited for my baby shower this weekend!! I can't believe how fast it came & how relieved I'll be too finally start buying baby stuff since I will know exactly what is left to get.
5. Lastly, My family comes in town this week and that I am so eeexciteedddddd for. I haven't seen them forever so it'll be so nice to relax.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

30 weeks

30 weeks!
When I first found out I was pregnant, I swore I'd never get to taht point where your "anxious" for the baby. I remember myself saying this exact quote to friends & family..."9 months is not nearly enough time to get things ready so I need to start now..." What was I thinking haha, dare I say it, but I am BEYOND ready to meet baby Conner and he still has some cooking to do in there so until than...I'll attempt to wait patiently and enjoy it. We will see how this goes. lol

In the meantime, I wanted to steer away from the normal questions I always fill out. I found this a few days ago and I'm going to fill it out instead. :) 

How did you find out you were pregnant?  By taking a home pregnancy test at my mama's. 
How many?  I think 3boxes, which is 5 tests. I took a whole box by myself, than had my mom run to get more, and than Jeff wanted to continue taking them that night incase I wasn't "doing them right." HA! 6 tests later...SUPRISE we are pregoooo! :)
What were your 1st symptoms?  I'd had some weird cramps that didn't necessarily hurt, but were way different than my normal cramps. I also hadn’t had a period in a while and people kept saying my boobs looked huge.
Who did you tell first?  Mama! Than Jeffrey, than my sister. Than we waited until the shock period was over haha.
Who was with you when you found out?  I was with my mom, I mean at her house, but I had taken the test seriously not thinking it’d be positive so I just went alone, took it and than started texting.  I was a complete mess after seeing the positive sign and I realize not because I was pregnant, but because it was such a big surprise. I’m not a fan of surprises. I like stuff planned and organized down to the nitty gritty.
My 1st reaction:  Not good.  Crying, shaking, and freaking out. For about four minutes
Was your baby planned?  Nope.  Biggest surprise of my (our) life.

How far were you when you found out?  At first I had no idea until I went to the clinic. I remember it was a weekend so I had to wait all weekend to go to the clinic, it was awful. The clinic estimated 6 weeks. Than I went to my doctor’s appointment and he said 9 weeks. .
How did your parents react?  My mom bought my test because she was the one grocery shopping at the time and I threw it in her basket haha. Because I’ve bought them before and nothing turned up and because my doctor had told me the chances of me getting pregnant right now with the problems I had would be hard, she said it was “a waste of money.” Hahahahh. Than she kept saying “your not pregnant. Your not pregnant.” So when I took my test and started screaming down the hall, she stood there really shocked but she's been so supportive and excited. My dad..who I felt would completely explode at me...was SO excited! He was just mad I told him last lol

My baby
Due Date:  July 22nd, 2012
Do you know the sex?  A fabulous little boy
Any names? Conner!
Any Ultrasounds?  I've had three throughout my entire pregnancy. I wish I had more, but what can ya dooo....
Have you heard the heart beat?  Of course. Every month. You can actually hear it if you lay on my tummy. It's so fast and strong.
Who do you think it will look like?  I kind of realized I always picture him in my mind like me just because I saw his nose and I know he got that from me. When it comes down to it though, I hope he has a little bit more of his daddy though so he will be so handsome
Will the baby have siblings?  of coursee.. I'm stoked to settle down for babies now. I don't want anymore for a few years, but I mean I plan on having a big old family, in seattle :)
Have you felt the baby move?  AHHHHH yes he is kicking. my. butt. Literally. I went to the movies with Jeffrey and at this point, sitting in a theatre chair is probably the most uncomfortable thing in the world. I was so restless. and I got so nauseous I had to leave. I think Conner could hear the movie and was reacting to it because he was kicking,rolling,punching me so hard I got SICK. Ever since than though (which was three days ago,) I've realized he's at a whole new powerful stage of kicking. Everyone can see him kick through my tummy. its pretty sweet :)

Miscellaneous
Did you have morning sickness?  Ugh, yes.  Awful
Did you have any cravings?  I’ve basically lived off of the same foods, just in stages. Milk (cold cold cold milk), nacho cheeeese on everything and drum sticks are the current faves. So healthy right? haha ugh
Did you have any mood swings?  Ha!  All of the time.  Jeffrey is a God for dealing with me. it's more just either ecstatic and super happy, or really irritable.
Are you a high risk pregnancy?  Nope.
Any complications?  Nope. thankfully
Formula or Breastfeeding? Breastfeeding
Have you bought anything for the baby yet? Oh he has his own dresser already.  Just clothes and a bassinet so far. I don't want to buy anything until my baby shower.
When did you start to show?  Hm I think I felt like I was showing when I was about 11/12 weeks, but I didn't really look pregnant to complete strangers untill about 17+ weeks
How long could you wear your regular clothes? I still squeeze into regular shirts and pajamas, but I think just within the last month I gave up jeans.
Will you keep the baby’s clothes?Yes! for his brothers :) 
Home or Hospital?  Hospital. 
Natural or Medicated birth?  I want the epidural.  For sure.
Who will be in the delivery room with you?  This has changed a bit lately. At first I was going to have it open to close friends and family, anyone who wanted to be because I think child birth is so life-changing, but I've realized how special this is for Jeff and he wants something a lot more private... he deserves that so were talking about this right now.
Do you think you will need a C-section?  I don't think so because I fill the baby kicking in my ribs which probably means he's where he should be. I'm really rooting to not have a C-section because I don't want to be healing for soooo long.

Will you cry when you hold the baby for the 1st time?  I don't really cry when special things happen, I'm just in a serious state of shock and complete silence. I haven't really imagined this part yet....so we will see.
What’s the 1st thing you might say to the baby?  I love youuu!
Will you let anyone video tape the birth?  ehhh no.
Are you excited?  While this seems like such a easy question, the bare truth that most women won't tell you is all the emotions they feel, exciting being one of them. I've been really nervous (to have everything ready in time), overwhelmed (when I was working too much and going to school because my body just isn't the same and it's exhausting,) blessed (because I feel like this life is the most meaningful. There really isn't any other purpose out there to me that provides more happiness than family.
Who will help you with the baby after the birth?  I moved in with my mom to save money so I could enjoy maternity leave a little better so probably her and my sister, of course Jeffrey.
What is your favorite thing about being pregnant?  I really
What is the worst thing about being pregnant? maybe the swollen ankles sucks the worst or the shortness of breath, nauseous, the headaches, BACKACHES, excessive hair growth....haha i'll stop there. I've realized some women love pregnancy and some women do not. I'm thankful to have such a healthy baby, but pregnancy has worn out it's welcome hahah.
What’s one thing you miss doing since being pregnant?  I miss tanning, and sleeping on my tummy! I also miss walking places like the beach or the mall without excessively worrying I'll have to pee and not make it to a restroom. 
Any days you wish you were not pregnant?  Of course not. I don't mean that sarcastically either lol. I love my baby boy so much. YES the process could be a little nicer on women but I am glad to experience it.
Are you ready for a baby?  I think so!  Ready as we’ll ever be
Do you have insurance?  Health insurance, yes.  Maternity insurance, negative.
How many kids do you want?  the more and more I think about this... I think four is a perfect number because it's pretty big, but nothing too big. That could change, but I'd like four.
Do you talk to the baby? I haven't really talked to him...I know sometimes if I'm in a really sappy mood I say things like "love you little baby." but I mostly rub him and play with him.
Do you still feel attractive? I don't feel ATTRACTIVE like I did before I was pregnant, I mean I'm never looking in the mirror super confident and excited with what I'm wearing, but I don't really feel self-conscious. I mean maybe I should be? but I don't think anyone really looks at anything besides my belly anyways so It's helped.
Have you had your baby shower yet?  It's next month. Can't wait! but actually yes I can. I still have to get Conner's room ready haha.
Do you like kids?  I don't like 'all kids,' I mean I've never been the type of person that went out of my way to play with little kids and stuff, but I'm sure I'll LOVE mine :))))))
How far along are you now?  30 weeks and some days!
 

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

29 weeks


(*IM CURRENTLY IN THE PROCESS OF MOVING SO I DON'T HAVE MY CHALKBOARD READY. Hopefully it'll be unpacked soon)

How far along? 29 weeks today!

Total weight gain? 25 lbs. as awful as this sounds.. At this point i don't care haha but I do hope I can get it all off as fast as I want it.. I watch and eat as healthy as possible because otherwise, I'm nauseous or throwing up. It's really insane how much you have to eat pregnant. I can't tell you how many times I threw up this month from being hungry, at least 6, it's so hard to change entire eating habits and eat 6x a day.

Maternity clothes? I have a couple pants, but nothing else. I just buy "bigger" sizes. Maternity pants for work have been hard to find so I've boughten like three pairs in the last month of yoga pants. I just wear them under my belly

Sleep? Ooooh It's ok. It's a hit or miss. I haven't had any stories like "I woke up because the baby was kicking so much" haha I sleep right through that so I'm not complaining. I guess the one thing I'll remember about pregnancy is waking up 4-5x for a bathroom break, and getting out of bed is a mission itself because my bed is soooo squishy, i sink in. It's a joke! Hahaa

Miss anything? Um not that I can think of, I think just being comfortable!! Driving is so uncomfortable now, sleeping has its days, showers are a bit weird with my new big belly... So I'm going to appreciate the day I have all of those back with no restriction.

Movement? Conner is a good baby I've realized! I haven't had any horror stories of him stuck in my ribs or kicking too hard. He's a kicker, and mostly at night he will start getting wild in there, but it's cute because Jeff is usually just getting off work so we get to play with him (or try) and talk to him.

Food cravings? I wanted to log the crazy foods that at one point or another I craved during pregnancy (NO NOT AT ONE TIME.. DON'T JUDGE HAHA): famous Dave's, milk, Arby's roast beef sandwiches with nacho cheese, pretzel from target with nacho cheese, ginger ale and Fiji water so far!

Any new habits? It depends on if I'm having "pregnant days" haha. I call a day a Pregnant day if I'm having bad symptoms and pregnancy is too blame (or so I think hahaha) so if I'm a emotional wreck, or throwing up, or tired beyond repair, I have no new habits. Something I've noticed when Is how mellowed out I am. Especially when cleaning comes around or in a argument or If I'm talking to angry customers... I'm really just relaxed and choose my battles now as far as what gets my emotions stirred.

Things making you sick? hmm. No. I only throw up if I'm too hungry or really stressed

Starting to show? Yes!

Best moment this week? this week was chaos between moving, starting summer season at the pools and adjusting to everything. I'd say the best moment was when Jeff felt Conner to his new big kicks. He was so shocked he could kick that strong... It twas adorable :)

Friday, April 13, 2012

26 weeks


"26 weeks, End of our 2nd trimester; one more to go!"

  1. Weekly Weights & Measurements: I'm still at about 20 lbs gained since the day I found out I was pregnant. This is a lot more than I originally wanted to gain, but your body isn't really your body when your pregnant. I read an important quote in my favorite pregnancy book that went something like this "Your body is somebody's home right now, it's not really yours....and don't obsess over it by going to the gym every day and working too hard because god forbid if something were ever to happen, you wouldn't want it to be something that could have been prevented" SO...this has been my philosphy on the weight-gain. It doesn't mean I wish I was a little more attractive and obviously didn't blow up this huge, but I guess pregnancy modeling just wasn't in the cards for this girl haha. I will live........
  2. Tests & their results: I have a glucose test on the 25th too test for diabetes. I never knew this until I was scheduling the appointment, but around this time women get screened for diabetes because during pregnancy, it's much more likely to develop & than go away after pregnancy. There is a big fancy name for it, I don't remember it, I just know long-name-short: diabetes. We will see! Other than that, Jeff and I are debating getting a 3D Ultrasound or not. I am not scheduled to get any more ultrasounds, and I'm so anxious to see what he looks like now that he's a big boy! On the other hand, I think waiting for that big moment of seeing him and not having any clue what he was going to look like is sooooo worth the wait. Right now, it's up in the air, but I think I'm up for waiting for that big surprise :)
  3. Reactions to your developing body: I'm really not to bummed out at my new body. I'll admit, it's definitely not a time I'll remember for being extremely confident, but I'm pregnant! I don't really stand in front of the mirror crying at all the unappealing changes because I'm determined and focused on getting rid of them right after the baby is here. Right now I want to focus on stuff I can control, and my body isn't one of those so I haven't been reacting too crazy. What has been pretty wild for me to get use too is the physical changes that happen OVER NIGHT. Being able to get out of bed the same way I have the last 20 years is the first change that's weird getting used too. My back isn't strong enough and strains way too much now if I don't take my time, pace myself and pull myself up with all my muscles. My belly is also super big now, I swear it happen over night, and get's in the way of me crossing my feet and curling up like I have my whole life. It's just not comfy and feels like I'm cutting off my airways somewhere haha.
  4. Questions to ask the doctor: I am asking my doctor a bunch of questions at my next doctor's visit. Some of them that I have written down are:
    • What do Braxton Hicks Contractions feel like
    • What type of birth controls are out there and the differences between them
    • When can I get back on birth control after delivery?
    • Any suggestions for birthing classes
    • My salt intake- how it effects me
  5. Cravings and Mood Swings: I haven't been craving anything besides Rocky Road Ice-Cream. Love that stufff! and my moods are pretty consistent this week. I noticed myself being really deep & sentimental today lol. I was asking Jeff a million questions about his childhood because I feel like I should know him more for dating him for 6 years so if I found a scar on his back, I asked him to tell me the story and I can listen to him talk for hours & getting so excited to have these two boys in my life, Conner & Jeffrey Doran :)
  6. Changes happening to the body and the mind: This week I called my nurse in a freak panic, and was really close to driving to the hospital. Long story short, I woke up and had severe SEVVERE swelling in my feet and ankles. they were so swollen, I couldn't even put my feet in my shoes, and I was really scared about preeclampsia. Preeclampsia is a disease that women sometimes develop in Pregnancy and it can't be prevented. It's really harmful to the baby and mother, and one of the biggest symptoms are swelling & vomiting (both of these I had all week which is why I was freaking out.) Anyways, the doctor had told me that based off the stuff I told her I was eating, I could be reacting really sensitively too salt and swelling when a meal had too much salt for my body's liking. I elevated my legs all night, and found that she was right! My feet were all better the next morning, but they do swell up based off what I eat. What sucks is not having the time to make everything I should be eating. My nurse told me that even eating mac-n-cheese out of the box is filled with salt and unhealthy, but I realistically will not find time to sit at home and make 30 minutes meals all day! I have started paying attention the sodium intake I digest, and keeping it under/around the max count she told me.....It' s hard work, but I'm glad it's nothing that could harm the baby! and my nurse........she's such a Biiiiiiiotch. She's so judgmental, and I feel like she talks down to me every time I call. I was really stubborn at first and didn't think she was right, but she was haha. I feel really good about naming our son Conner! It sounds perfect, and I know I love it because everytime a child runs by me and I even think I heard the mom call him Conner, I go up to her and tell her how cute his name is and ask what the middle name is lol! Jeff doesn't really like the spelling CONNOR, he likes CONNER a lot better, and I'm not opposed to it so if it's something he's really passionate about than CONNER it is. I really like the name: Conner Dean Doran or Conner Riley Doran (Jefff hates Riley so I'm not sure if I'll win this one any time soon.) Other than that, the names are being eliminated and we are getting close!!

    * I also am so proud of baby boy for his big kicks! He kicks so tough now it makes my tummy rock, and if a blanket is laying on time, it fluffs up a little if he's doing his summersaults. It's the best feeling!! His kicks keep me grounded. If I ever start getting too emotional, or too exhausted from pregnancy, his kicks keep me motivated. I love him so much!