My total body experience
Getting Pregnant was a complete unexpected surprise to say the least. Jeff and I have talked about babies, but it was definitely not in the plans for another couple years. In fact, I went to my OBGYN in April and found out It wouldn't be no easy task to reproduce children and would need to be induced by medication. Getting pregnant is a totally body experience, the changes that come are more than I could have anticipated. And you know that saying, "Pregnancy is like a rollercoaster of emotions." I think that's a bit vague to say the least haha, I've experienced every emotion known to mankind during these stages in my life!
On Saturday, December 3rd I found out I was pregnant. I was shopping with my mom at Wal-Mart and decided to pick up a Pregnancy Test. Now I've never believed in intuition, or that whole "follow your instincts..." hocus-pocus. I've just never had those types of feelings before, but now being pregnant & all, I 100% believe that deep inside, in the back of my head, I knew I was pregnant, I wasn't having much reason to believe I was pregnant, so grabbing that test was so random. Either way, I took it and found out I was pregnant.
I was shocked, angry, sad, and nervous. I screamed to my mom and told her it was positive, she kind of just stood there speechless. I started crying and repeating: "my life is over." which I now feel extremely bad for saying because I feel like life is just beginning. It took me about ten minutes to gather my thoughts and call Jeff to tell him. My mom was such a great support during this time. She just hugged me, and told me everything will be OK. I went to the health clinic, found out i was 6 weeks and called my OBGYN to schedule my first prenatal appointment (which revealed I was actually 3 months along. )
Being pregnant has really changed my life. It's been a roller coaster of emotions so far, but has given me the most amazing inspiration to be the best person I can be. From the moment I wake up to everything I put in my body... The thought of growing a baby inside me has me happy,nervous of course, but happy...ecstatic. My best friend Molly gave me some great advice when I found out I was pregnant. She said "You were never supposed to have children. So yes, this wasn't planned and yes, it might slow down some of your plans, but this is a miracle. You will have a baby, your own baby! This really helped shed some light on the amazing miracle I was being blessed with.
Since then, I've really spent a lot of time tracking my pregnancy and enjoying every minute of it possible. I've started a pregnancy journal which I love decorating and buying stuff for. & Now I've added blogging. My dad is making me a cute sign/chalkboard to start taking pregnancy pictures with. Until then, I'll stick to blogging!